1. |
Lonely Sometimes
03:28
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I will tell on myself
I have been thinking of you
I got this stupid smile the
same place I got this stupid dance
Only you can
make me the woman I am
I'm lonely sometimes
There's
danger in too serious,
foolishness in too much fun, but
I'll take my chance with you
I'll take the long long way home
Only you can
make me the woman I am
I'm lonely sometimes
I love everyone
forget it if they don't love me, 'cause
I have seen the light, and
baby this lunch ain't for free
Only you can
make me the woman I am
I'm lonely sometimes
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2. |
Fireflies
03:11
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She
rode in on her mare last night, the old
woman came for me, she
said that she's done everything and
now it's up to me, she
led me to a ledge of rock where a
raven called me name, she
flew me to a mountain top where I
heard the weeping land
In my dreams you held my hand and
gave to me a jar of
fireflies to light my way, find my way,
light my way to the meadow of the dark damp night of Kali
Ma
I
asked to see my history to
find where I went wrong, she said
wrong is right in different time but I'll
show you where you're from, I
saw a queen upon her throne and she
ordered me to live, she said
little girls who hear my song must
find a way to sing
Wrapped around a tree trunk in
hurricane rain, what's
keeping me from letting go is
keeping you from me
In my dreams you held my hand and
gave to me a jar of
fireflies to light my way, find my way,
light my way to the meadow of the dark damp night of Kali
Ma
The old
woman gave me one last look before
turning towards the moon, I
noticed there upon the ground lay a
feather from her hair, she
held it high above her head and it
grew into a wing, she
sang into the sea of stars and her
song became the wind
In my dreams you held my hand and
gave to me a jar of
fireflies to light my way, find my way,
light my way to the meadow of the dark damp night of Kali
Ma
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3. |
Ripple
04:35
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Waiting, always waiting, to
get somewhere, to be something for you
Listening for the right word that says
exactly how I feel, who I really am, but
most times it's the wrong word I settle for, like
wine on lips it rhymes my name
I
know myself, and weeping in the
middle of the night is a
telephone wire to a holy life, I
tell myself if it's love I seek than it's
love I'll find in the space of you in
between the moving lines, so
hold me high to your sacred sun and
bless my soul with your shine
Can't you tell by the look in my eyes for the
sake of you I'd leave this behind, there's
something to be said for the
way of love
I
am
dancing
on your
heart
You
corner me within your wailing walls and
force upon me the truth of stone, that
even though its nature is to sit and wait,
all it wants to do is fly away, so
cast me out like that little stone and
on my sweet way down
I
pray to make a ripple on your heart and the
song inside to tear me apart, I
think I understand what it's all about, I
pray to make a ripple on your heart and the
song inside to tear me apart, there's
something to be said for the way of
love
I
am
dancing
on your
heart
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4. |
I Believe
04:07
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I saw you lookin' when I got into my car, the
second-floor shade came down before I could wave
Was it just coincidence playing with my lonely heart
I see no reason to play this game safe, 'cause
I believe that one day I will walk with you
I've got to tell you, you really got me in a mess
Everywhere I go I see you, hear you, smell you I confess, so
get your socks and shoes on, baby, we're going for a ride
you've got to explain to me what this fire is inside, 'cause
I believe that one day I will walk with you
I don't know whether I should take you home, or
take you 'cross country or in the shed next door
See I've got this brick in my gut, I've got to speak
I'm hot, no I'm cold, if I don't kiss you now I'll explode, 'cause
I believe that one day I will walk with you
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5. |
Make it Good
03:24
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If you have just one wish to make today
make it small, make it big, but make it with you're heart
If you have someone who really loves you
let them give you everything, everything they can
If I could be anything in this room right now
I would be that dandelion in your hair
If I could be anything in the sky tonight
I'd still be that dandelion in your hair
Everything is happening all at one time
If you want to see take your hands, take them from your eyes
You know the line that says life's too short you better live it
Well how 'bout this, maybe life is only relative
Don't you know you're beautiful to me
Don't you know you keep me in flight
Don't you know the world would stop spinning, stop
spinning without you I'm gone
When they gave me your wedding ring in a plastic bag
I understood what it means to come home
So if you have someone you really love
Make it short, make it long, but make it good
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6. |
I Want to Know You
03:57
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I can feel you inside
like your body is mine
Where do I end and you begin
I can hear you in my mind
laughing boldly like a child
purity of heart can never hide
I wanna know you, wanna know you like the bottle knows the wine
I wanna know you, wanna know you like the silver knows the dime
I wanna know you, wanna know you like the phases of the moon knows time
Fleeting things come and go
Words and breath we try to hold
Memories of hunger, days of gold
I’m not one for steel and stone
Give me love, I’ll make a home
Better to feel cold than not at all
I wanna know you, wanna know you like the bottle knows the wine.
I wanna know you, wanna know you like the silver knows the dime.
I wanna know you, wanna know you like the phases of the moon knows
Time, time, is on our side
Time is now, now is whatcha got for a life
We’re livin’ on love babe
We must be doing something’ right
There is more than we know
If we want to we can go
further than, deeper than the river flows
Throw yourself to the sea
Drown your fear and agony
Let it be me, let it be me you dream
I wanna know you, wanna know you like the bottle knows the wine
I wanna know you, wanna know you like the silver knows the dime
I wanna know you, wanna know you like the phases of the moon knows time
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7. |
Freedom Ride
04:23
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I've been afraid of flying too far
I've been afraid of diving too deep where
shadows hold the fragile truth of my
soul
If
I were a bridge I'd have burned myself down, if
I were a door I'd be locked in between
my room and your room
unable to move
And I'd give everything just to have my little freedom ride tonight
If
I had my way I'd find me some sun, and
fill in the holes, the deepest one that
drains the joy I've been putting away
And I'd give everything just to have my little freedom ride tonight
If you have to you can hide your eyes, but
I won't take you anywhere you won't want to smile
You gotta trust the road, you gotta let me take you on this
freedom ride tonight
I'm not afraid of dying too young
I'm just afraid of missing you more than I could
ever love another world
But
I gave everything just to stand in
line for this freedom ride tonight
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8. |
Every Night
04:01
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It's
two a.m. again and there's a lonely neon sign
blinking out of time with my life
Whenever I think this hard the longest mile from home is the
one before I see the hall light on
I ought to know by now that you are my every night
I ought to know by now to know the rope you gotta be tied
Is this the forest and the tree again and I'm still blind
You keep me alive
I know I'm swerving but I'm much too tired to care
I trust the center line to get me there
Wrong turns and u-turns make me wonder where I am
I long to see that storm come 'round the bend
I ought to know by now that you are my every night
I ought to know by now to know the rope you gotta be tied
Is this the forest and the tree again and I'm still blind
You keep me alive
There's nothing greater for a warrior than a war
A healer, a dying man in pain
So I'm begging for five minutes in the shade, and a
word or two that will do somebody some good
I ought to know by now that you are my every night
I ought to know by now to know the rope you gotta be tied
Is this the forest and the tree again and I'm still blind
You keep me alive
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9. |
Love Me or Leave Me
03:08
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I saw you drive by at quarter after nine
Just about the same time she should have been across town
I just hope you know exactly how a sticky situation like me will turn your world upside down
'Cause
I've been saving up too long
Once I start well I'm here for the long haul
Just one little touch right here will push it over the edge
Love me or leave me now
She's onto something, she knows more than we do, she's
reading the phone bill, better get me outta here
This is not the time and place to be looking at me as if you've got something nasty on your mind
'Cause
I've been saving up too long
Once I start well I'm here for the long haul
Just one little touch right here, oh she'll never know
Love me or leave me now
There is one thing you should know
I've been here five thousand times before
But I think you can make it worth my while
I don't know know any other way to keep myself from exploding all over my tidy little life
So
I'm not taking you home, in
fact you're here for the long haul
Just one little touch right here will push it over the edge
Love me or leave me now
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10. |
If Not You
04:00
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Your freedom of speech is hurting me like a
flower garden growing on a landfill
Sweet honey in the comb but the seagull knows
If not you, I suppose, it
would be me, me in charge,
me in the dark while you inherit the Earth
Thank you but I choose me
Your right to bear arms is killing me, is it
outside or inside that threatens you?
Could you give your privilege for a walk in my shoes?
If not you, I suppose, it
would be me, me in charge,
me in the dark while you inherit the Earth
Thank you but I choose me
How did it ever get this way?
Don't you want it to change?
My hell is the day I see it your way
My heaven is the night I can trust you with my life, like a
woman trusts a woman to do what is right
If not you, I suppose, it
would be me, me in charge,
me in the dark while you inherit the Earth
Thank you but I choose me
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11. |
Youngstown, OH
04:21
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I never said I was good for you
I never said I was good for you
I never said I was good for you, but you did
I never said I was over you
I never really got through to you
I never felt as though I got quite enough love from you
You left in the middle of the night with the rent to pay, to
Youngstown in the pouring rain
You left in the middle of the night with the rent to pay
to Ohio in the pouring rain
You never understood my pain
I never understood this game, and even
now I wish you'd track me down to try to explain
I never meant to drag you down
I only meant to keep you 'round, just
tell me how you got out the door without a sound?
You left in the middle of the night with the rent to pay, to
Youngstown in the pouring rain
You left in the middle of the night with the rent to pay, to
Youngstown in the pouring rain
You left in the middle of the night with the rent to pay
to Ohio in the pouring rain
One tail light out and the porch light on
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12. |
Leaning
04:37
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I am leaning
in the doorway watching you
set the table, pour me the last of the wine
I am listening
to your day and wondering
how I look to you in candlelight
I am not my mind if I can tell you what I'm thinking
I am not my heart if I can tell you what I'm feeling
And I'm feeling nothing tonight
I'm always trying
to find a word to name myself so
there's no secret to
who I really am, 'cause
sometimes I'm a liar
sometimes a beggar and a thief, but
mostly though I'm just a
fool in love
I am not my mind if I can tell you what I'm thinking
I am not my heart if I can tell you what I'm feeling
And I'm feeling nothing tonight
I am dying to
kiss the corner of your mouth
after dinner, after the
dishes are done
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13. |
Lucky
05:42
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I have seen the light a thousand times when
you roll into me and whisper sweet dreams
I have heard the sound of God in your
breath as you fall asleep, but
I am much too lost and bound to be found
I'm the luckiest duck on the pond, I'm a
cat in the window in afternoon sun, I make
love in the night, I make friends in the day, but I'm
just another diamond in the shade today
Amazing grace how sweet you run through my tender veins
while I romanticize my uncomplicated leaving
My only real solace is lying mute with my own desire, but
I won't drag you down my friend, really
I'll be fine
I'm the luckiest duck on the pond, I'm a
cat in the window in afternoon sun, I make
love in the night, I make friends in the day, but I'm
just another diamond in the shade today
I know it's natural to crave what you need, while you lay
starving and denying the plate at your feet
I cannot resist you, won't you bring me back to myself, and
let me love the ones I really love so well
There is a rock in the desert where it almost never rains
It is beaten by the wind, the sand under merciless sun, and
in a crevice on that wall grows a tiny yellow flower
And I just wonder how and why it grows though nobody knows
I'm the luckiest duck on the pond, I'm a
cat in the window in afternoon sun, I make
love in the night, I make friends in the day, but I'm
just another diamond in the shade today
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14. |
Don't Believe
03:56
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There
was a little girl who didn't believe in
anything and everything she was
told, she
walked her own walk and lifted every rock and
followed bunny prints in the
snow, the
birds and the worms and the bees and the trees and the
rocks, oh the rocks, she gave names, she
thought one day if everything had its
own name, we could all be friends
I
think that there's a part of me that
believes in anything and every
thing, I
have my own walk but I must admit that
footprints in the sand seem to have their
way, the
birds and the worms and the bees and the trees and the
rocks, oh the rocks, they pass me
by
just one day I'd like to wake and
realize I never knew any-
thing
Don't believe in
anything that doesn't feel
right to you
Don't believe in
anything that doesn't feel
right to you
Don't believe, don't believe
Don't believe, don't believe
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15. |
Lay Down
04:19
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Though it was December it
felt like mid July
the days sun coming off the brick wall
behind me
it was the first time I
held your eyes, it
was the first time I saw your fear of
going back inside, and
you said you
didn't know what to believe and
you said you
didn't know how to
be
Lay down with me
Lay down with me, I could show you how
Lay down with me, I'll show you how to
be
You had the weight of two worlds
on you
you thought you had to be the one to
fix everything
her problems, your problems,
my problems too
all I want to do is
make love to you
you said you
didn't know what to believe
you said you
didn't know how to
leave
Lay down with me
Lay down with me, I will show you how
Lay down with me, I'll show you how to
be
Walking down a country road
all alone
sun is teasing me with
dreams of home the
woman I want to be is
so far down this road, the
woman I am right now, she
has so far to go
Do you remember the words, the wall, the sun and the call
Do you remember the secret, the song, the touch, the
touch and the love
Lay down with me
Lay down with me, please show me how
Lay down with me, show me how to be
Lay down with me, please show me how
Lay down with me, show me, show me
Lay down with me
Show me how to be
Show me how to be
Show me how to be
Show me how to be
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16. |
I Am Not Going
03:38
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I
want to, I
want to
say what I
mean, I
want to, I
want to
mean what I
feel, but they
want me, they
want me to
be what they
need, they
want me, they
want me to
quietly
leave
I
want to, I
want to, I
want to be
free, I
want to, I
want to
not be him but
me, I
want to, I
want to
marry who I
please, I
want to, I
want to be-
lieve in
me
I am not going
in fact, I'm coming in
you better batten down your hatches, you can
think of me as the wind, you can
think of me as the wind
I
want you, I
want you to
follow your own
lead, I
want you, I
want you to
bring me to my
knees, I
want you, I
want you to
know what you
need, I
want you, I
want you to be-
lieve in
me
I
want to, I
want to
say what I
mean, I
want to, I
want to
mean what I
feel, but they
want me, they
want me to
be what they
need, they
want me, they
want me to
quietly
leave
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17. |
Like Stone
03:00
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I'm
not the one you think I am, I'm
tired of trying to make you understand, I
don't read poetry, I watch t.v., I'd
cut my hair myself but it would look like hell
You
write me notes in the blood of your love, you
change my name and climb into my tub, you
wonder why I don't give you my soul, and
if I did you'd surely swallow me whole
Your
judgment falls like
stone, your three tiny words break my bones
judgment falls like
stone your three tiny words break my
bones
No more mountains to climb,
candles to burn in the darkest night
no more clove cigarettes
legs entwined, I just wanna forget
Your
judgment falls like
stone, your three tiny words break my bones
judgment falls like
stone your three tiny words break my
bones
my bones
my bones
You
write me notes in the blood of your love, you
change my name and climb into my tub, you
wonder why I don't give you my soul, and
if I did you'd surely swallow me whole
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18. |
Rolling Coin
03:42
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I
live these days like a rolling coin on a
hardwood floor, which way will I fall, I've
taken to naps in the sun in the
afternoon, curled at the end of the bed, and
life falls hard when you've done
nothing all day but count your faults, there's a
tree in the yard that reminds me of you, your ma-
jestic strength gently breaking the wind, it's not
easy to be so self-
absorbed you know, the demons are bigger too, but
every night I give it all up just to
lie with you completely as
one
It
amazes me how many songs come from the
same few chords, isn't love like that, and
nothing compares to your smile coming at me and in the
palm of your hand the first tomato of the year, but
many nights only my gui-
tar knows the longing in my
heart and soul is the only thing that makes any
sense to me, yet I could never explain, but
maybe it's the rise in the bread or the
shape in the clay, surely it's the work in hands, but
maybe it's the sound in the
word that I could never
hear
So
turn out the light, open the shade, let the
moon reveal\
the contours of our love, I'll
close my eyes, for a moment I'll feel as
big as the sky, as bright as the sun, and
I'll recall what it is I am
hoping for and find it already
here
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19. |
All I Want to Be
04:47
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There is a little girl
She prays to angels
She sits by a little creek
behind the house and she speaks
Please make me beautiful
Please make me strong
let me be good
All I want to be
is good
Her body says she is ready
but the boys they don't call
She stays out late in the driveway
until she makes 25 in a row
Please let me jump real high
Please make me the star
Let me be good
All I want to be
is good
All I want to be
All I want to be, she said
All I want to be
is
good
There is a young woman
Sometimes she still prays
She lies next to her lover
and she feels like an angel
Please let me be me
Please keep me true
Let my love be good
Let my love be good
All I want to be
All I want to be
is
good
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20. |
Because I Never Told
05:10
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I thought you'd be long gone by now
but you still hang on your dirty nails in my leg
I'm letting you hang, I'm dragging you along
Sometimes I think maybe, I just dreamed you
Maybe it was my little child imagination
But I feel your hand and my soul on fire
my soul on fire
On fire
On fire
Did you
watch me run through the
woods through the field up the
hill
all the way
home
I bet you can't recall that very fine, very fine morning
the crunch of the leaves, the frost melting, melting beneath me
And the knife on your belt that bruised me
that bruised me
Oh me
Oh me
Did you
watch me run through the
woods through the field up the
hill
all the way
home
Did you
watch me run through the
woods through the field up the
hill
all the way
home
Home, where they never knew
Home, where they never knew
Home, where they never knew, no, they
never knew, no they never knew
no they never knew, no they never knew, they
never knew, they
never knew, they
never knew, be-
cause I never told
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21. |
You've Got a Secret
03:41
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You hear the calling of a river
You spend the night on a ledge above the clouds
There's nothin' like a few days alone on the highway
trying to figure it all
out
You've got a secret
you can't tell anyone
You've got a secret
keeping you alone
Some people pass right through your life
spilling themselves all over your clean floor
You've been in my life longer than anyone
spilling nothing, giving more
You've got a secret
you can't tell anyone
You've got a secret
keeping you alone
Welcome to your hopes and fears
This love you've been giving for so long now is
coming back to you, is
coming back to you
You wonder why sometimes you just can't cry
There's something big inside that shuts you down
But that something is nothing to run from
It's just you, beautiful you
You've got a secret
you can't tell anyone
You've got a secret
keeping you alone
You've got a secret
you think you can't tell anyone
You've got a secret
but you know you're not alone, no, no you're not
alone
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22. |
Drifting Politely
04:36
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Although it's hard you have to decide
Always two sides to the story and two of a kind
I guess I wouldn't mind if there was somewhere to hide
Drifting politely ain't gonna get me nowhere
and sleeping alone is getting me more tired
How long must I wait for the storm oh the
storm that fills my sails, the storm that carries
me along
You know I don't think I can tell you how I feel
'cause this was done to me before
This debt now forgiven the circle takes so long
Drifting politely ain't gonna get me nowhere
and sleeping alone is getting me more tired
How long must I wait for the storm oh the
storm that fills my sails, the storm that carries
me along
So I must choose my direction
This way, that way, what's right and what's wrong
pulled by the purity in your
eyes
Drifting politely ain't gonna get me nowhere
and sleeping alone is getting me more damn tired
How long must I wait for the storm oh the
storm that fills my sails, the storm that carries
me along, along
to you
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23. |
Drowning
05:19
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I wanna get down to the meat of it
I wanna strip the bark, split the seam of it
There's just so much river to cross in a day
and in the fear of drowning another chance lost to playing safe
You have to understand my words just fall in the space
So disregard the overflow thrown your way
It seems more accurate to me I am only what I fee
And in the fear of living, hesitation drowns my will
I try to see things in a simple way
I try to know my push from my pull
I try to understand the reap and the sow
to live these empty days as full
But my
voice can't bare the song as the
night can't bear the sun, I'm a
river of tears with no eyes to cry, a
desert of thirst with no clouds in sight
so hold my
hand
On certain Autumn nights when the change winds call
by a lake or an ocean where black waters open
I feel the universe unfold between our naked
soul and in the fear of loving, love finds me
anyway
I try to see things in a simple way
I try to know my push from my pull
I try to understand the reap and the sow
to live these empty days as full
so hold my
hand
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24. |
This Afternoon
04:51
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It's
windy out, she said, the branches blow
against the house, the rain is
coming across the field, how you dried my
wanting years
I don't know how long my life will be
I don't know many more full moons we will
see
It's
snowing out, I said, it's piling up on the
back porch, I'll go sweep it off
When I get so cold, you wrap
around me
I don't know how long my life will be
I don't know many more full moons we will
see
The breeze is blowing through the screen, and I smell the
turning earth
Geese are flying north, oh we'll be
planting soon, yes we will
I don't know how long my life will be
I don't know many more full moons we will
see
Look at the clouds, she said, like the ones last night in my
dreams
Oh yes I see them, I said
I finally see, yes I
see
I don't know how long my life will be
I don't know many more full moons we will
see, but this afternoon is eterni-
ty
is eternity
is eternity
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25. |
Mountain of Me
05:22
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You said you
don't know why I'm leaving
Your not knowing is
half of the reason
Now you're left
staring at the ceiling, and
when I wake to you, you
turn your back to me, and I
wonder, I wonder
how soon is soon?
I want you to be that fire
coming down the mountain, the
lava rolling on over me
swallowed by your molten love
I said I'd
be back in December
You thought I
meant for good
Now I'm left trying
not to remember
how you came to me, and
I turned my back to you, and I
wonder, I wonder
how soon is soon?
I want you to be that fire
coming down the mountain, the
lava rolling on over me
swallowed by your molten love
Love, love, love, love
I want you to be, I want you to be
that fire coming down
the mountain of me
How soon till a
broken heart is healed?
How soon till I
face you in my mirror?
How soon till I
recognize my freedom?
'cause when I wake to me, I
still send my love to you
and I wonder, I wonder
how soon is soon?
I want you to be that fire
coming down the mountain, the
lava rolling on over me
swallowed by your molten love
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26. |
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There's a
forest in your head, a
fortune in your hand, you're a
half an empty glass of a
man, but
don't take my word for it
listen to your sigh when you
find another fault in your
friend
Your life shouldn't be a death wish, your
love shouldn't be so heartless, I
don't want to be the one to tell you this, but your
days are running out, your
days are running out
You still
forge into your past, you
hoard away your cash, that leaves a
third of you to love or less than
that, but
don't take my word for it
listen to your friend when she
says you're hard to reach and looking
sad
Your life shouldn't be a death wish, your
love shouldn't be so heartless, I
don't want to be the one to tell you this, but your
days are running out, your
days are running out
Don't you wanna be the one that
saves the world from caving in and
out you breathe away your
chance to be the lover with-
in a way I think you fear that
anything thing that feels good is
sinister love is in your head
You don't
like the way I live, the way I
go from day to day, if my
work is fun then it must be play, but
don't take my word for it
listen to this song, if it
makes you mad then
sister you're the one
Your life shouldn't be a death wish, your
love shouldn't be so heartless, I
don't want to be the one to tell you this, but your
days are running out, your
days are running out
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27. |
What You Are For
03:02
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You gotta believe that this is
what you are for
you gotta believe that there's
something more than more
you gotta believe that there's
knocking on your door
you gotta believe that you're
fortunately torn between what
is and isn't yours
Give your heart for love, or
give your heart for war, but
give it all for good, it's
what we're for
You better believe that we're
all just passing through
you better believe what's not
proven is what's true
you better believe that your
love is touching blue
you better believe that you're
fatally imprisoned by the
things you say and do
Give your heart for love, or
give your heart for war, but
give it all for good, it's
what we're for
You gotta believe we're all
helplessly alone
you gotta believe that the
ruby comes from stone
you gotta believe that this
world is our home
you gotta believe that we're
taken to the places that we're
too afraid to go
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Sher Vadinska Bellingham, Washington
Vertebrate mammal
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